The real me

Okay, this blog has mainly been used to express my outrage at things going on in the world. It was never meant to be all about that. So here's a little list I felt compelled to post so any readers won't think I'm perpetually bent.

Puts Happies in My Heart:

• Colors. All colors. And how they work together to create emotion.
• Photography. I wish I knew more about my digi camera. Mom & I talk about taking a class at the college. Def on my To Do list.
• Music...all kinds. Yes, I can even appreciate some country songs.
• I'm starting to love the idea of being a mommy some day. John and I talk a lot about our hopes in the role of parenthood. I think it will be fun.
• Prayer. I'm learning more about what "pray without ceasing" looks like.
• Thinking about my ski trip in January to Lake Tahoe NV.
• Seeing the sun peeking through clouds on my way to work. I almost drove off the road this morning because it was soooooo breathtaking.

I struggle with:

• Understanding Holiness. I don't know where CSI and Survivor and scrapbooking and going to the movies and sometimes despising answering the phone on weekends and listening to secular music and joking around with my friends fits into a life of holiness.
• Being compassionate towards those I feel are stupid and made their own mess.

I want to:

• Keep a cleaner house. John deserves to live in a home that he doesn't always have to clean himself.
• Learn to play the guitar but I don't know if I have the time or enough interest to dedicate myself to the learning part.
• Make more cards to let people know I love them and that I'm thinking about them.
• Be a better friend to Sarah, Lisa, Krissy, Traci & Rene.

Need to:

• Raise a higher standard for how I live. I believe this starts with studying God's word.
• Stop being so lazy and just GET ON THE TREADMILL already.
• Start thinking about a set of measurable goals and a time-frame for completion.
• Not sweat the small things.